| I rip my heart out to give to you alone. It never did me any good |
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[Friday
June 23rd, 2006 at 7:32pm] |
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"Why do good things never wanna stay?"
Why do I never learn my lesson? Do I honestly love him this much to contine hurting myself?
I'm soooo pathetic.
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[Wednesday
June 14th, 2006 at 10:59am] |
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Cranberries-Linger |
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What's the point in being a great girlfriend?
Why do boys never appreciate anything they have?
They take it all for granted and when it's finally out
of their reach, that's when they decide to actually
"try." Or so they say.
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| Sick and tired |
[Saturday
June 10th, 2006 at 11:05pm] |
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I'm sooo sick and tired of homewrecking whores!
Please just leave us alone and let us finally be
happy!
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[Wednesday
April 26th, 2006 at 2:34pm] |
Love philosophy (Stolen from Tiger, Stolen from paul)
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.
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[Wednesday
April 26th, 2006 at 12:50pm] |
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"And even if her(his) crashes tonight,
she'll find some way to disappoint me
by not burning in the wreckage or
drowing at the bottom of the sea."
"You're never gonna get it right.
Never gonna get it right.
Never gonna get it right.
You're never gonna get it right.
Never gonna get it right.
Never gonna get it right.
You're never gonna get it right."
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| It's been too long |
[Friday
March 31st, 2006 at 5:42pm] |
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"Barely Legal"-The Strokes |
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Sorry that I've abandoned you for so long livejournal. I'm back(I think.)
Alot has happened since my last post. I fell in love again with someone new, only to get my heart smashed and burned into pieces again.
I hate love, but the feeling is so intense that you never want it to end. Why was I so stupid?
I'm too caring, I take everyone's bullshit, and I'm so over it!
Anyways, I'm going somewhere right now!
be jealous.
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[Monday
November 1st, 2004 at 7:09pm] |
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Why must I be so dumb?
Sorry heart.
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[Friday
August 20th, 2004 at 7:39pm] |
It's official..............
It's over.
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[Saturday
July 17th, 2004 at 3:33pm] |
I got a chameleon! We named her Georgie first, then Mary Jane(cuz she looks like a stoner) then settled for Chamille, the Chameleon:
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[Tuesday
June 22nd, 2004 at 9:27am] |
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High School's over with...finally. But I'm missing it. I sit here bored sometimes, and I think to myself, "don't I have a project due?" It's and empty feeling, but I love sleeping in. I just miss the people, my girls, my teachers, everyone. I'll never see those familiar faces again in one place. It sucks, but it's life. On the brighter side, I will be going to both the Warped Tour and Ozzfest. It's going to be great, I just hope I don't get burned to a crisp like last year.
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| Graduation Practice |
[Friday
June 18th, 2004 at 10:39am] |
Eric being extremely bored
me and Britney
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| Some Senior Breakfast Pics |
[Wednesday
June 16th, 2004 at 4:02pm] |
Eric being cool
Me and Jenny
Me and Rudy at Reyna's house
me and my cousin Jenn
Me...and Eric looking dead
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[Tuesday
June 15th, 2004 at 12:09am] |
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WARNING: There is going to be an obscene amount of pictures posted soon so dial up users beware.
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| Don't make me choke you |
[Sunday
June 13th, 2004 at 11:48am] |
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U2-With or without you =( |
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Well the week of HELL is finally over with. I was working all damn week and taking tests. Finals to be exact. I started freaking out the other night thinking that I failed econ and that I wasn't going to graduate, but I passed with a C! Yay! So graduation's this week, and I hope I don't trip. That'd be sad. Me and Gabe are doing good, tiny little resovable fights here and there. No sex. The evil crimson arrived and that lasts for fucking ever! Oh well. I'm going to really miss my Tres Leches girls. I love you guys!
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| Are you turned on? |
[Wednesday
June 2nd, 2004 at 6:56pm] |
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Ry Ry's Song- Glassjaw<3 |
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The end of the year always sucks! It's so depressing, you really want to get away from it all but you don't want to get away from the people. I don't want to leave my Tres Leches girls, my homies in acting, or my cool teachers. Today in acting we passed Pumba around and everyone had to say something about the class, the people or the plays, and it just brought tears to my eyes(but I didn't cry.) I just don't want to leave. I regret not joining acting so long ago. I really wish I could go back in time and change a lot of my high school years. I'm going to cry so much next week and ball my eyes out at Graduation. HOPEFULLY I do graduate. My econ final is fucking 500 POINTS! I'm so screwed! I'm scared.
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[Wednesday
June 2nd, 2004 at 5:13pm] |
HAVE YOU EVER SEEN ANYTHING SO BEAUTIFUL?
I think not!
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| The demons inside |
[Wednesday
June 2nd, 2004 at 9:05am] |
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Well I just finished my book report. It came out pretty good too bad it's only going to last for like 2 minutes. Here's my chance to freak out the class even more. Me and Gabriel are doing much better. We made up and things are pretty much ok now, I like it like this. I got my Prom pictures yesterday...I wasn't too happy but I wasn't to mad either. They came out alright, I actually look ok in them which is a miracle. Gabriel on the other hand -long dreadful silence.- His hair! It's all in his eyes and ofcourse like always he didn't even smile! Oh well. Drama Banquet was fun, Eric(Hollywood) was such a pimp that night, all the girls were all over him..can't see why though. Eric Moreno was cool enough to dance with me, thanks! I like him now, he's changed, he's not a dick to me anymore, he's actually super cool now. Adinah's a lucky girl.
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| Silent eyes watch you |
[Tuesday
May 25th, 2004 at 8:16am] |
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FATA-Take her to the music store |
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Things haven't really been great. Saturday me and Gabriel were slowly making up. Slowly. Then he left and I needed to find a shirt because I only had a tank top and it was cold so I went in his drawrer looking for one and I got one, but the drawrer fell out, and there were a bunch of pictures. Pictures of models, whatever. Then there were pictures of girls, real pictures. I looked through them, there was one of that skank Tara, one of this other chick, and two...of his ex girlfriend. One was a picture of her topless. I dropped the pictures and I just started crying. Then he came in and he looked at me telling me that we have to go because Shrek 2 was about to start. He then saw me crying and he kept asking me what was wrong. I told him to look behind him on the floor. He looked and he was like, "oh...those. I found those in a box yesterday." I knew that was so much bullshit, and I just cried more because I hate being lied to. So I got up and walked out of the room to the car. We got to the movies and he's like, "Denise, can you just pretend to be happy?" WTF!? How did he expect me to be happy after finding what I did? I know that if he had found a HIDDEN picture of Wes, NAKED, he would be fucking pissed and break up with me. SO, that's what I did. I broke up with him. We got our seats in the theatre and I got up and went towards the exit, where no one could see me and just cried. I let it all out. I couldn't hold back because it hurt too much. Who know's what he was doing with those pictures right? And for me to have asked him months ago if he got rid of everything of her, and he said yes, and for me to find THAT, it hurt. He kept claiming that he found them in a box the day before in the garage. During the movie, I couldn't laugh and I know I would've normally had laughed at sooo many things in the movie, but it hurt too much to laugh. When I heard him laughing I just wanted to fucking stab him in the throat. We got to my house and I punched him and kicked him in the face, scratched him, pulled out some of his hair, until, he stopped me and pinned my arms down hard. Before he left I slapped him hard again, then before he got in the car I kicked him in the nuts. Can you blame me?
Sunday, I woke up sick. I had a serious sore throat and I was sore all over, my performance was that night so I needed to get better, but nothing worked. Then he came over to try and make me feel better. He came to my performance, and he wasn't even paying attention half of the time, and I wanted to stay and watch the other performances and he was bitching to me to leave because he was hungry. So he left, and I stayed then he came to pick me up and took me home. At home, my step-dad was being a dick as usual and I seriously didn't feel like dealing with his shit. Then I find out that his mom sold the car they were going to give me! I was fucking furious! I really needed that car, I need to get away from Gabriel and I can't do it unless I get a fucking car. Monday I didn't go to school, it was late start and I was still sick. He brought me some soup at around 2 and tried to hug me and stuff but I kept pushing him away. On the phone that night he kept saying he loved me but I just said, "Ok, bye." and hung up. I don't want to hear that BULLSHIT right now, because he's a fucking lying dickhead.
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